Mr. Utopia Preliminary Round + My 1st Totomomo Underwear Review: ManView Jockstrap

Hello everyone, I know I have not been very active lately again on my blogging but I am here again! =)

Well, I got into the preliminary round of Mr. Utopia contest but I didn't got into the Final Round which I was partially expected because of my lack of stage presence and confidence and also being the thinnest guy among the contestants. So, because I didn't plan and expect to win, I just plan to enjoy the show and have fun doing something silly. There's a round where you need to do what is your dream/ ambition is which you need to wear an outfit or costume which present your dream/ ambition. And I decided to just entertain the gay bar as I thought Utopia bar is gay and so does the contest. I brought the S&M leather belts and underwear but I wore a black jeans pants as I still worry about being too revealing if the contest judges and organiser didn't plan to go that far and I also worry that I will be treated as being a slut or b**ch hahaha. But I know at least I can get your attention.  

All the contestants arrived early before the night starts and had rehearsals a few times to calm us down to be less nervous when the actual contest starts. I was happy to have the chance to make new friends and know more people in the contest and I was lucky enough to have friends to fetch me to the contest. But still, maybe I was too nervous or the backstage is too dark and I got bad memory. I can't find my wallet after I changed my clothes to get ready for second part of the show and that turned my mood down from high and happy. And so the third part of the show, my heart is just wanted to quickly finish the night and go make my police report and sleep. I was so emotional because all I remember the third part of the show is to strip off your shirt and pose and I got no full stage presence as I did the posing fast and runway walk fast too. Plus, there's crowd screaming much for me either, I was sad.

I was kinda too emo that the next morning I cried as I felt, no one really liked me on that night contest. I mean I know I won't win, but couldn't we at least just pretend we enjoy the night? HAHAHA how delusional I was back then. And I had a song playing in my head which is "Lies" by Marina and the Diamonds. But then, my partner decided to bring me go temple pray for the lost of wallet as a sign of bad luck. Right before that, I found my wallet! after I canceled all my atm cards and made a police report and checked my bag 3 times. But the following day after the contest, I found my wallet in my bag! And things got lighten up, and I feel happy back again because the wallet is more important than the contest I joined although I lost, but its not my first time being rejected as my journey to success will falls numbers of falling which I believed.

Update on life and workout.

After entering the second month of my probation job as creative marketing, I started to get use of certain routine or a kind of lifestyle I am living for now. Trying to wake up on time to prepare own breakfast, shower, dress up, walk to train station, getting little sweaty and catch the train and bus on time to office for work before 9 a.m.. I have felt the goods and bads of taking train everyday, observe every one of us as human beings on train doing some selfish and some kind actions happening in train.

I have watched people trying to squeeze into the train no matter how full the train has been already filled, showing how selfish are we just so that we can go to work on time and we throw away our shame and face, being bold and forgotten what is the human/moral values. I have seen some people giving way and seats to the needy ones. I have seen a blind man with one eye heavily infected and eye popping out and trying to find his way to make the right call with his mobile phone. I have seen the rich and the poor taking the same train. In short, taking public transport make me and you see the daily lives of the people putting together with contrast, which i think is special of how life surrounds me or us with things like such to remind us something or make me learn from observation of things in life.

Other than working the usual weekdays and getting all dry up by squeezing creative juice and losing my inspiration to create, my desire of wanting to earn more pocket money at my current state, made me continue wanting to find some part time modelling photo shoot and also thinking to sell my next e-photobook. Well, its not all just about the money. Its also something i enjoy doing other than my job when everything goes smooth together. =)
And now I have a deal with Totomomo site open for my fans to sponsor items from Totomomo for my next coming e-photobook which themed "Fantasy/Not Myself" which will be kinky theme and also input my personal concept about fantasy and reality to deliver a small message before browsing the fantasy images like how I did the arrangement from the first e-photobook.


I have people message me about what items can be sponsor from Totomomo or what is my limit to wear for photoshoot such as cock ring or thongs. I will say I can wear that but I will match with another item to get it semi transparent covered or have something peekaboo.


This is my first e-photobook and still selling. To buy via Paypal or more information click the link below:
https://www.facebook.com/JsonYau/app_208195102528120

or you can buy from Totomomo also:
http://www.totomomo.co/E-Book-I-Started-Nothing-by-J-son-Yau-EB001.htm

Starting to cope back being active on my facebook page and blog and promoting and selling not many, but still some e-books, and finding sponsors and partners to work with from photographer, to props and concept, ideas, have made me busy lately and slightly lack of sleep. It has put me into doubt and questioning myself what is really best that suits me and make me happy working for, what job can make me happy and keep me going, able to keep me survive? I question myself am I capable of becoming a gym instructor and also a model?  etc etc... I started thinking about studying gym instructor course. I just only know that I enjoy doing workout and also photoshoots. Of course I still do enjoy doing painting, drawings, design and handcraft.

And I saw this article "Interview with Todd Sanfield":
http://www.myportiswaspsays.com/2014/01/a-new-interview-with-todd-sanfield-is.html?m=1
and I realised, it can be done and I am not alone. But I know its going to be really tough. And Todd Sanfield prove to me you can have many dreams but only matters is how you manage it. Am I going to follow and believe on what I am doing multi tasking can achieve success? I still think twice. Not everyone have the same strength and limitation.

I have met a few facebook friends and fan that I have never met before after I have moved to this rented place, and working in KL. I felt happy and lucky for that because after the long day working at office, I get pretty tired and out of drive.

Talk about my workout lately,  I haven't got a fix workout routine weekly. I workout 2- 3 times weekly. If I doing my workout at the condo gym, I will do cycling 100 meter to warm up my body, then I do stretching hands and legs and my back. Then I will do some kicking and some hips workout and planking. Then, I only start using the machine do chest, back, legs again, and lastly abs workout. Each other body parts workout I do 3 sets, each set 10 repetitions,  except for abs workout, I will do 4 sets and each set 20 repetitions. But sometimes I want to stress my muscle more, I will add a few extra reps. I hope this answer to people who had asked me about my workout in personal message before.

I hope I can get more photographers to work with for my e-photobook or for their portfolio too. I also looking for makeup artists or stylists to work with. And I also interested to look for publisher who is willing to publish my e-photobook into hardcopy, let me know the rates and details. 

My Body language, my face features and my imperfections are my identity.

Well, after I have done a few similar kinds of photoshoot, the handsome, the pretty or the cute, funny, sexy, cool and hot photos, the conceptual and emotive. I think its time to work with Mei Fern again for another conceptual emotive black and white photos. This time I'm going to be taken photos rawly with photo touch ups or makeup on face. So will be the raw imperfect me as I have blemish on face. But to comfort myself and its kind of true also that my imperfections are also my identity to define and distinguish me from other people. Although I do wish my skin can get better one day. =) But this photoshoot is not mainly capturing my face but also my body structure, my bone structure and my body language.

Ade/ Adrian Wong Wolf Boy

 I personally thank Adrian Wong for transforming me into something different than the usual me being seen on the other photos from make up to hairstyle and photos. Do hope we get to work together again in future.

Jason Oung Photography

Hello everyone! Sorry for lack of updates for a long time. I have been busy doing freelance design jobs lately and finally got time to update some of my modelling works. This was taken few months back I think is during March if not mistaken when I was having longer hair. Jason Oung and I thought to doing sexy theme photo shoot so we did a few under garments or underwear photo shoots. I feel very secure and nice working with him again.

To see more of his photography works, you can click here:
https://www.facebook.com/pages/Jason-Oung-Photography/261690300518208

Poor Great Artist?

They do not have real actual title eventually, it was something I wanted to try quite some time. It was more to artistic with the nest hat and mysterious look on the mask with net. This was taken in October 2012. Photographed by Azrul Kevin. I am happy to have this opportunity to work with him again. He is a nice, well experienced photographer. Posting this now I kind of missing my old body which seems more ripped abs than my current one. If I get to be real model for local agency, I will promise myself to work harder on my body and earn money =)