Update on life and workout.

After entering the second month of my probation job as creative marketing, I started to get use of certain routine or a kind of lifestyle I am living for now. Trying to wake up on time to prepare own breakfast, shower, dress up, walk to train station, getting little sweaty and catch the train and bus on time to office for work before 9 a.m.. I have felt the goods and bads of taking train everyday, observe every one of us as human beings on train doing some selfish and some kind actions happening in train.

I have watched people trying to squeeze into the train no matter how full the train has been already filled, showing how selfish are we just so that we can go to work on time and we throw away our shame and face, being bold and forgotten what is the human/moral values. I have seen some people giving way and seats to the needy ones. I have seen a blind man with one eye heavily infected and eye popping out and trying to find his way to make the right call with his mobile phone. I have seen the rich and the poor taking the same train. In short, taking public transport make me and you see the daily lives of the people putting together with contrast, which i think is special of how life surrounds me or us with things like such to remind us something or make me learn from observation of things in life.

Other than working the usual weekdays and getting all dry up by squeezing creative juice and losing my inspiration to create, my desire of wanting to earn more pocket money at my current state, made me continue wanting to find some part time modelling photo shoot and also thinking to sell my next e-photobook. Well, its not all just about the money. Its also something i enjoy doing other than my job when everything goes smooth together. =)
And now I have a deal with Totomomo site open for my fans to sponsor items from Totomomo for my next coming e-photobook which themed "Fantasy/Not Myself" which will be kinky theme and also input my personal concept about fantasy and reality to deliver a small message before browsing the fantasy images like how I did the arrangement from the first e-photobook.


I have people message me about what items can be sponsor from Totomomo or what is my limit to wear for photoshoot such as cock ring or thongs. I will say I can wear that but I will match with another item to get it semi transparent covered or have something peekaboo.


This is my first e-photobook and still selling. To buy via Paypal or more information click the link below:
https://www.facebook.com/JsonYau/app_208195102528120

or you can buy from Totomomo also:
http://www.totomomo.co/E-Book-I-Started-Nothing-by-J-son-Yau-EB001.htm

Starting to cope back being active on my facebook page and blog and promoting and selling not many, but still some e-books, and finding sponsors and partners to work with from photographer, to props and concept, ideas, have made me busy lately and slightly lack of sleep. It has put me into doubt and questioning myself what is really best that suits me and make me happy working for, what job can make me happy and keep me going, able to keep me survive? I question myself am I capable of becoming a gym instructor and also a model?  etc etc... I started thinking about studying gym instructor course. I just only know that I enjoy doing workout and also photoshoots. Of course I still do enjoy doing painting, drawings, design and handcraft.

And I saw this article "Interview with Todd Sanfield":
http://www.myportiswaspsays.com/2014/01/a-new-interview-with-todd-sanfield-is.html?m=1
and I realised, it can be done and I am not alone. But I know its going to be really tough. And Todd Sanfield prove to me you can have many dreams but only matters is how you manage it. Am I going to follow and believe on what I am doing multi tasking can achieve success? I still think twice. Not everyone have the same strength and limitation.

I have met a few facebook friends and fan that I have never met before after I have moved to this rented place, and working in KL. I felt happy and lucky for that because after the long day working at office, I get pretty tired and out of drive.

Talk about my workout lately,  I haven't got a fix workout routine weekly. I workout 2- 3 times weekly. If I doing my workout at the condo gym, I will do cycling 100 meter to warm up my body, then I do stretching hands and legs and my back. Then I will do some kicking and some hips workout and planking. Then, I only start using the machine do chest, back, legs again, and lastly abs workout. Each other body parts workout I do 3 sets, each set 10 repetitions,  except for abs workout, I will do 4 sets and each set 20 repetitions. But sometimes I want to stress my muscle more, I will add a few extra reps. I hope this answer to people who had asked me about my workout in personal message before.

I hope I can get more photographers to work with for my e-photobook or for their portfolio too. I also looking for makeup artists or stylists to work with. And I also interested to look for publisher who is willing to publish my e-photobook into hardcopy, let me know the rates and details. 

My Body language, my face features and my imperfections are my identity.

Well, after I have done a few similar kinds of photoshoot, the handsome, the pretty or the cute, funny, sexy, cool and hot photos, the conceptual and emotive. I think its time to work with Mei Fern again for another conceptual emotive black and white photos. This time I'm going to be taken photos rawly with photo touch ups or makeup on face. So will be the raw imperfect me as I have blemish on face. But to comfort myself and its kind of true also that my imperfections are also my identity to define and distinguish me from other people. Although I do wish my skin can get better one day. =) But this photoshoot is not mainly capturing my face but also my body structure, my bone structure and my body language.

Underwear Photoshoot

This time I try to model underwear for a friend's online clothing store. Its a self portrait with remote control on my hand clicking away to snap, haha. I felt kinda silly and funny at the same time when trying to get the camera senses my remote control and have to be still with my poses. I tried to do a few different styles of me with different underwear and different props to show the online store do sell different underwear for different kinds of people. There are the smart looking geek, the sporty athlete, the cute fun sailor, the wild gogo dancer. HAHA.

Second time photoshoot by Jason Oung

 Its my second time working with Jason Oung. This time we have become more communication and less gap between us. Thus, this time easier and more daring to pose infront of the camera without camera shy. But this time we photographed two different days. One is having my long hair and one is have cut shorter. This time we tried some like fashion photoshoot with bath tub and some is more like underwear model photoshoot.

Overall I do notice my body have became thinner or still the same or less muscular due to recently less consistent body workout routine and more on doing freelance graphic design works and photos editing.

Manip Mania Photography (Exposed/ Nude Content)

Finally at least have some photos to update, this is combination of 2 different days photoshoot as he told me my first photoshoot have a lot of postures hiding my hands behind.

The photographer, Manip Mania or you can called him Fikri is learning to do photography and fashion by himself as independent as he could be. This point is pretty much me except we working on different fields and I know how the bitterness taste for trying to survive in this reality life.

It was my first time being full nude eventually but I wasn't being told before I came to the photoshoot that I will be full nude. I thought it would be just half nude. But well, its a different experience and challenge for me to naked infront of the camera and have confident and still remain professional as model. I think I won't do another naked shoot next time, because really cross my boundaries, the most I can accept must have something to cover my genitals, I don't mind expose my hips but in a artistic conceptual way will be better than giving people too much sex appeal.

All these photos were taken in his own sewing room which is also his bedroom and also his studio room. What a space saving multifunctional room, he amazed me with how thoughtful he was trying to make his dreams become achievable by making the dreams living with him everyday although is not yet a great success as we all always pictured ourselves with our big dreams achieved with our own big working space or workshop. But at least he is making what his dream job living with him daily as a stepping stone to get closer to his dream.

Poor Great Artist?

They do not have real actual title eventually, it was something I wanted to try quite some time. It was more to artistic with the nest hat and mysterious look on the mask with net. This was taken in October 2012. Photographed by Azrul Kevin. I am happy to have this opportunity to work with him again. He is a nice, well experienced photographer. Posting this now I kind of missing my old body which seems more ripped abs than my current one. If I get to be real model for local agency, I will promise myself to work harder on my body and earn money =)

Black White Grey

Hunky Santa

Hello, I hope this is not too over rated photoshoot to any adults. I think I should put this blog restricted and not viewable to people below age 18. Anyway. it is my self portraits, self set up the backdrop and one standee light, also the Christmas lights. I do this initially is for the Andrew Christian underwear Hunky Santa but I didn't notice the closing date was on 14th December and I only did this photoshoot on this Monday which is 17th December, silly me. But I still try my luck to submit two photos to them but they got no respond to it. =( In the end, I still love their products  ;)

Andrew Christian brand most of the time have very sexy and adult content with their models almost wearing nothing or wearing almost naked hot Andrew Christian underwear with their bulge showing. So, I did tried to wear something to help me sustain the bulge. Sorry I know this part sounds so not comfortable to certain people but I am just sharing the progress of how it is done.

And also, the Christmas lights aren't comfortable to put around your body as the lights on for a certain period of time, they turn hot like little things heating you skin. But its something that I wanted to try for quite some time. And of course, because I am a quite slim person, I have to not only put oil or baby oil on my body to enhance my body to look slightly more muscular, I also try to wear jacket to cover my arms to give an illusion like I have not too thin arms, or maybe I just not so confident yet.

But I also do take some photos without my jacket and put the reindeer hat  around my neck for fun. I took about 80-90 photos as total just to get only a few nice photos and its pretty funny situation trying to do self portrait by clicking the controller repeatedly to get the camera senses your controller.

Lastly, I wish everyone have a good or naughty Christmas, depends you want to be on which list from Santa haha. But the most importantly, I wish you all have a safe and yet a merry Christmas. Bless you all.

Jobless Week 6

Loving my back! haha, Wish I can reach my ideal weight which is 67kg -70kg.

Having normal salad as usual but not everyday, sometimes just eat muesli when ran out of stock for salad. This week was very busy and slightly fading on positive energy or hope on my journey to gain weight and maintaining my muscle without losing balance of time/life on doing the other sides of me which is art projects.

The reason of being jobless

Each time when people asked about why jobless, each time I revise why I quit, each time I have more thoughts, I was initially wanted to learn how to build a website from back end to the front, I also wanted to be me, have my style, my input into the web designs, and I also try to understand and put myself into same goals as the company's, to be united in order to have the self motivation to do good works and not just work for money which I learnt from a book, I learnt in order to be successful with partners, first must have same vision and goal which are able to work together for it and not fighting for it. But when work overload and not informed surprises strikes and workaholic spirit forced into the environment, I immediately know this is not the ideal lifestyle I was trying to balance of,  and changes made to the environment before I able to be qualified, I lost a senior to learn from when I think I have not fully learn everything, I just feel, unorganised, not systematic, not define job scope and I am just not happy. I just feel when in my personal real life, I have been mostly trying out , working out things by myself, i do not wish to be in the same situation again in my working life, makes me feel pointless and rather working for myself individually. And that's the reason why I always wanting to try working or collaborating with people, as I understand the power of teamwork. 

Other than that, I just want to say, I can eat super plain for two months plus because of acupuncture to treat hives, I can try to eat more meals correctly and more vegetables to balance the acid and alkali because of wanting to gain more weight and muscle, and not getting heaty and cause breakouts. I can do non-paid own art projects and quit my jobs and dying just hoping somehow the things i do can be something someday, I can because wanting to survive, hopefully madly preparing things and trying out things to earn little bits of money and dunno where am i going. I am just crazy that everyone thinks and I know i have not reach the lowest point to say such an arrogant words while I am still losing things now, all i have now is platforms communicating with outside world and trying to get right networks, I am using my all to be the artist that I want to be and is not enough time to balance life yet. Its just the beginning. 
You don't know how much I hate about myself before I came here this far.

Jason EK Oung photography

Outdoor photography with Jason Oung Photographer 2012.