My Experience in Pink Dot 2014

I am not sure where to write or how to start but I want to make it short if possible but its more than one sentence i can describe my this year experience at Pink Dot Sg. At first, I am Malaysian and its not being approved to have such event here as public event to create awareness and support and acceptance. And there's always a mixed feeling when attend our neighbour country Pink Dot event. I felt happy to have so much love from the people who wear pink shirt , gathering here and support the freedom to love. This year, I was told there will be group of people wearing white to protest or against LGBT or Pink Dot event, I was initially worried. Plus, on my way to Hong Lim Park for Pink Dot event, I saw one family on the street, one look like the mum, and one daughter and one uncle.

I not really know what's the whole scene is about but I just heard the mum asked and nagged, " why you always make your own decision without our approval? why you so stubborn?" the little girl I think she is about 10-13  years old I not sure and she dressed in pink tee where as mom wore white collar shirt.  The little girl was a little scare and afraid to answer once her mum asked. It was just a few blocks away from Hong Lim Park, near the hotel I stayed. I maybe thinking too much about the pink and white shirts. But if  what I heard is true and the whole scene i saw is about Pink Dot. Then I was not really prepare for the people who against it. Because I also heard to invite the people who wore white to participate Pink Dot, to let them understand what is Pink Dot.

Acting no dialogue workers in《无间行者》

Its my very first time participated in drama series production team for finding some side income. I have no idea what was I going to act as till the day came which is yesterday. I was only informed I act as a worker. Then only found out I need to act as a drugs analyst worker/maker. We shot the whole day as we reach the location which is at Jalan Maharajalela since 7am till 10.43pm. But mostly have some scenes we need to wait our turn to come.

In the room we shoot as science laboratory for making drugs is the most hottest, humid, stuffy place we shot. When we just started the first scene to shoot, the friends I just met on that day who are acting the same role with me, we all were immediately sweating like raining. I was the worst one, I remember we all were wearing the doctor's coat and the mask cover the mouth and shower head wear. I was sweating till my mask can fill up some sweat liquid in it.

At that time everyone who acting in that place also sweat including the main actor and actress which is Aenie Wong and Adrian Chan. Of course there will be difference treatment between main actor and actress with us who is just a sub actor with no dialogue. They have assistants who helped me wipe sweat and on mini fan to keep them refreshing from time to time. But they are very nice people as well when they saw me sweating very badly, they also ask their assistant to give tissue to me.

Overall, I had a nice experience to been through the production process and understand the bitterness of them having hard time to get what the director's want for scenes and remembering the lines and be into the story's environment and act seriously to save time without too many NGs.

The workers behind the camera also having long time working with the actors and directors such as the camera men and the sound recorders, order and bring meals to everyone, etc.

But during the waiting time, I didn't take this chance to take photos with any actors or actress because I feel I need to keep a respect distant to them although they are friendly but because I personally not very often watch TV or drama series, so I not very know them well, so I feel a bit embarrassing to ask take photos with them.

But overall, I appreciate I get a chance to work closely with the actor and actress given by the director's assistant. Although the payment is not high but is reasonable for actors with no dialogue and had a different experience to me.

Jobless Day 1

The picture I wrote,

"I remember a story was being told during this trip before I came here, a middle aged Asian woman
who lives there said, “If you’ve never been there, done that, you’ll never know how crazy you are,
how stupid we were in our youth. Like when you were young, you were so excited to go to Times
Square to count down for New Year Eve, just to get into the crowd see the “apple” drop down and
that’s all. When you look back, you only realize how crazy you were. You won’t know if you have
not done that.” Well I think that’s called life, you have lived with special memories."

I apologize if I have a lot of grammar errors in my writing.

Refreshing my memories after I quit my job and started to tidy and browse back the photos I have took and never have a chance to look through and edit.
I have cleared my old posts to start a new chapter of life.
I am gay, I love art and I am jobless. I am currently wandering around, self venturing in my own world who thinks I am an artist but not a professional good one.

I am just taking a risk of my career life by quitting my job and focus on the projects that I have been stubbornly wanted to do. I don't know where it takes me although I am scare but I know I am on something important which only gets me in fear which I call it,  "Life"

I am grateful that I have a sister who cares and worry me for being jobless, a good lover and a financially supporting dad. I will do my best not to disappoint them. God give me time.
Although I am not religious.